Nicolean

Goodbye mister(s)

Fri, 14 Dec 2007 13:48:37 GMT

bye bye . i've finally let go of all of you.
I dont love you like i loved you yesterday!

stupid.

Tue, 20 Nov 2007 13:04:22 GMT

gees. how could i be so naive. of course he's totally moved on. why should i even bother.

and more old tracks

Sun, 14 Oct 2007 05:55:11 GMT

Its not love but its still a feeling - the pipettes.

Yes. thats the title that describes it now. I've moved on, if not more than once. got myself a real good guy whom i love to bits but i'll still get raked up with the fallen autumn leaves to the past when i was with other guy. we werent really together but i know i liked him alot. i still smile whenever i see you online. i still remember your favourite colour is white. but what will these memories do.

i still miss you. i still think of you when i look at the stars.

oh and if you think its that dragon boy then your wrong. last person i'd think of.

on a happier note. i think i got my best friend back. feels like im on top of the universe.

those old songs.

Fri, 07 Sep 2007 07:02:08 GMT

Just like a breakup. my heart aches like shit. Spend my lonely times crying or thinking and crying again. Everything seems to remind me of you and im in a mess and so much confusion. this is almost close to worst than a breakup ive ever been.

Except, its not a breakup with a guy. Its with a best friend. Someone whom i really thought i'd be friends forever. No matter what shit we had went through and how much we had argued about small stuff. I know they say nothing lasts forever, but i always thought that friends would. i guess its just a fairytale thought on my part. but i still stand on what i believe. I want to believe and i want it to be come true. we will be friends again.

It just happens so fast and i feel like im treated worse than that someone we used to talk about alot. You must think that im telling her everything we used to talk about but im not. I just cannot ,because i feel its betraying too much. And plus, now im left to fight alone. I dont want her to think we're not friends or we're arguing or anything because then she'll win this invisible fight where ive always had you with me. But now i'm fighting alone and im losing the battle.

i swear i dont know what went wrong. and i thought if we werent talking that it wouldnt be so bad. but then you had to remove everything about me. and now i know that you dont want me to be ur friend anymore and it hurts me more than it already has.

We always have friends to help us get through our breakups. But what if our friends are the ones we've broken up with.

honey please say your gonna be ok and talk to me soon.

you dont deserve to be loved.

Fri, 15 Jun 2007 18:21:51 GMT

ASSHOOOOOOLE.

if theres one person i know whom i can freeze and slap a million times and do wadever torture on him/her. it would be _____. Honestly, the one of the biggest jerk ever. Some people are really lame and bigheaded man. Sheesh.

Honestly. You dont have a heart man probably dont have sense, and brain and a whole lot of junk. People like you dont deserve to be liked and please okay, ur not that good anyways. Stop being mean. stop acting big. stop acting! AND STOP LOOKING AT THE MIRROR.

i wanted to post this ytd

Sat, 09 Jun 2007 17:13:31 GMT

happier ah.
trying to look at the positive side of things.
to see the good things life brings,
like buttons and rainbows and stars,
like friends, guys and superstars.

So i can feel happier.
but i go through all this,
before you wake me up.
so i can feel happier
to be save with you.

its early morning and no ones awake.
i listen to your songs those lyrics,
gives me goosebumps make me shake.
nobody can mimic.

nobody can mimic this.

so i can feel happier.

it takes a simple greeting.
to lift that downcurve above ur chin.
once you caught me singing.
singing with much than grin.

i will never have to say
goodbye
because i.
because iiiii love youuuuuu.

so random sia. it doesnt have much meaning and it isnt really meant for anyone ah. for the romantic at heart? hmm anything.

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k ah now i gotta write a song with my inkless pen.

i remember.

Mon, 04 Jun 2007 19:10:03 GMT

Not really feeling on top of the world nowadays. but theres days when the queen doesnt feel like a queen kan? Though theres not much things to be sad about neither is there much things to be glee about but the number of things that make me smile are countable. if you know what i mean.

and im extremely appreciative to have such things. Holidays. Not that it sucks or anything ah but why are there so much cancellations.. gaaaahh. Not really what i expected. I feel really RAWR nowadays ah. and i know whose to blame. Like lots,really. Not lots to blame about, but lots to blame on. I feel like smacking the wall with a cardboad a million times.

Been keeping quite alot to myself. Its.. theres just no one i can talk to ah. no one i feel like talking to. everyone has their own plans. everyone pissed about smth. everyone is occupied with their own piss of shit.

well not everyone,but happens that i jsut want to share happy things with that few.

bite me, bitch.

sometimes when im alone i just want to start crying. I think its loneliness, its creeping up to me just like how boredom took over me. But being lonely is worst. And they say breakups are painful. Well there are much painful things when im here. but i dont know,there is this emptyness, this oomph, this annoyance, this pest, this itch, this coldness, in my heart that really makes me feel like shutting the world. to some point, making me feel on the verge to end life. to drown myself in something to distant all this feelings. to start again anew.

rejection rejection cancellation cancellation.

i think im too petty. but please spare me. no pity no sympathy. please, that will only make it worst. I dont need any of those. by golly, im in pain.

scary.

Sun, 27 May 2007 19:39:51 GMT

having a relationship seems scary. if i watch cherie and yue nian. if theres no trust theres gonna be lots of complicatioonn.. lover by the side. oh yea.

sigh.. i wish i had my mp3 now. and oh yes i accomplished mardy bum on the guitar. woooo clap hands .

no its not a secret

Fri, 25 May 2007 17:04:17 GMT

im in a marathon. having and odboland link makes me feel like a kid. ew.

kiss of glory sound

Wed, 23 May 2007 14:08:07 GMT

the girl i saw look super cacat in eyeliner. Peace no war ah sia.

I've got the best thing in the world
Coz' I got you in my heart
And this screw little world
Let's hold hands together
We can share forever
Maybe someday the sky will be coloured with our love

Seems like ages ago and i still have strong feelings for you. 1 more year i break my own record. But who cares about records now when im coming with ideas to wad to say to you. Using up every single brain cell i have. Seems im quite stupid afterall bcz i cant seem to find anything.

kaneeenaaa.
kawan tak guner sial. dah ah, makan sushi sudaahhh. ahahha wth sia makan sushi.

I WANT A NEW GUITAR TUNER!!!!!!!

GO TIGER!

Tue, 15 May 2007 14:04:19 GMT

*shrugs* i dont know. I just envy MJ i guess. Who would have the chance to kiss a superhero on his own spun web. sexaye sexaye. ahh and catch shooting stars? WOW.

so i guess this means they dont need to spend money on beds then eh?

Confession: I cried when harry died. I mean like, NOOOOO . He doesnt deserve to have the same fate as his father. He said he'd die for his friends and he really did! ahhh. so touching. And he looked sooo hot when he lost his memory. Oh and when he was in NEW GOBLIN(i dont like it, i think there was another name for it) costume.

Of course now i understand the fanatism that was going on with my friend bout Gwen. Cause she's a platinum blond and her lips looks oh so kissable. And if your a big Spiderman fan, you'd know gwen was pete's first love/crush or something like that. Yeaaa i think. I cant rmb.

Overall, i think it was the best of all the other Spiderman movies. This one had more action and all ah cause spidey had to fight like... 3 villians? The ending was almost the same as spiderman 1 with a slight variation though. AND HARRY HAD TO DIE!! OH YAA , one thing i was quite disappointed with the movie was.. what happened to spidey senses?! thats my favourite part!

wads with the emo hair when he became venom anyways? i thought that was weirddd.

tiara&flinz thought MJ and Pete would kiss in the end and they even counted to 15. But alas, unlike SOME PEOPLE who watches too many love stories, i knew by the way they were embracing and slowly dancing, i told them they wont. hahahahahahahahahhaahaha

dah ah not funny. i thought he'd proposed though. hmmm guess he couldnt put his wife before himself..yet.

flinda didnt understand how venom could die like that even after explaining twice.

K ah, there goes my money for tmr. i guess i'd not be eating.

Thats All For Today

Mon, 14 May 2007 16:47:19 GMT

Just 20 mins ago i was grinning and giggling to myself while reading the history of messages sent through yahoo! chat. I dont even remember having those hilarious chats!!
And minutes before the 20 mins , i was singing to some song i havent even heard of. Aww like you know sometimes you decide you want to hunt for new songs and you'll just find the lyrics and sing along pretending like you've heard it a million times or so just to impress your family (like, oh ya i've memorised the lyrics to all the songs i listen to.. ya) or just being plain you, (well, me). hah.

Today i went picture hunting with pasagay and she's zoinks. OK. i just miss the zoink word . right, so much for HER wanting to watch the sunrise/ wanting to wake up at 8 to go to the park. I secretly woke up at around 10am cause some asshole msged me. OH! the secret part is that i didnt wake her up. So i went to play sims. And after 2hours of unlocking new locations, learning new ingredients, woohooing, and trying to two time another sim, eirah finally called all groggy sounding like

eir" ehh im gonna bathe and go to your house now, what you doing?"
me*step just woke up also* "ohh ahh...*concentrating on sims trying to take the newspaper*...ahh, i just woke up ah"
eir"oh.. you bathe oredi?"
me"I JUST WOKE UP HOW CAN I BATHE "

hahah ya kinda lame. but if eirah finds me then. SORRY PASAGAY AHHA. YOU HAVE A NICE SLR! NICE CLOTHES! NICE HAIR! HI5! LOW5!

anyways, i miss my midnight friend. I reckon he still isnt feeling well today so i didnt bother him with one of our unusual greetings like halooooo.

*SPECIAL!!*
OH GREAT.. my FIRST ever picture holding an slr and my face is constipated. Nvm, lets take it as if im trying to savour the LOVE IN EVERY BITE, ok?

Oh dear
It's been hardly a moment
And you are already missed
There is still a bit of your skin
That I've yet to have kissed
Oh say please do not go
But you know, oh, you know that I must
Oh say I love you so
But you know, oh, you know you can trust
We'll be holding hands once again
All our broken plans I will mend
I will hold you tight so you know
It is love from the first
Time I pressed my hand into yours
Thinking oh is it love?

AH

Sun, 13 May 2007 14:31:34 GMT

For those of you who, ok actually no, HAHA hi flinda only you know. If you read my blog bout the trapped in four walls thing, its crap.
_______

What i actually wanted to say was alot more heartwarming ahh but i felt soo ________. Anyways, dont you just find guys who cant talk proper english annoying?? GRR.

I have alot of things to say ah but just not now. I feel too pissed with something.

mary ann found me. hello mary ann. hahaha.

Happy Momma's Day.

Sun, 13 May 2007 09:12:18 GMT

"ROSELINEEEEEE. Roseline roseline mum mum mum mum mummy mummy mummy mummy mummy mummy mama mama mama mama mama ma ma ma ma mum mum mum mummy mama mama ma ma ma" "WHHHHAATT!!??" " Hi, hehehehehehheehhe"

I celebrated Momma's day yesterday and i dont know why. I mean i dont know why we cant celebrate it today instead. I guess my dad's too eager to get her something. We(k actually my dad) bought her SK necklace and a rose. Super blingy. I like it. I think my mom can make a necklace collecton or something. My dad always buys her a necklace, its like a m day ritual.

cooo woo woo ool.

OH YEAH WHO WANTS CAKE? Oh yea uhuh come and get it. Its chocolate.

i was screaming NOOO and doing loosey goosey hand actions

Sat, 12 May 2007 18:04:04 GMT

speniding the 1.36 hour eating noodles with an overboiled egg. by overboiled i dont mean those hardboiled eggs. i put my eggs together with my boiling noodles but because i was so caught up in thoughts i OVERboiled the damn egg.

who cares about overboiled egg anyways? well i do , cause i like them just nice. i like them still watery in the inside.

had a little conference with zaf and shampoo. and it was obvious to the brink of obvious that i was high. And i think zaf was annoyed. he asked if im sick and he probabaly realized because of my sengau voice.

hey new friend,i want your number.